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[28 Jul 2005|06:47pm] |
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Hm. Things have been pretty crazy lately. Matt went to New Hampshire to surprise Brandon for his birthday.. and pretty much the entire time he was gone, or at least damn near close to it, Angie and I have hung out. We never got along, never even tried.. there wasn't any actual reason for it, it was just how it was. Randomly, we started talking.. and then I pierced her septum, and then we talked some more.. and then it was like love at first sight. lol I'm joking of course.. nah, we just hung out a lot those few days. It was pretty crazy, confusing, and fucking awesome. Her and I knew nothing about each other, and I always assumed the worst.. I'm not quite sure what she thought of me besides being Matt's "bitch ass girlfriend." We found out we had a few things in common, such as our taste in trashcans, vinyl go go boots, and eyeshadow. She flicked me off, and I licked her face. Ummmm... :] All three of us went to shoot pool because we haven't been in a while.. and I still suck the worst ever. Hm.. everything is pretty damn great right now, except that I need a job that pays me good money.
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[05 Jul 2005|07:37pm] |
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I haven't posted anything in here in a long time. First, I'll start with personal changes. I'm growing my hair out, I haven't dyed it in about three months so I have a couple inches of blonde roots showing. I have 40 piercings now. In each ear I have: 1/2 inch plug, 3 other lobe piercings, carilage, industrial, and tragus. I have both eyebrows, both nostrils, septum, vicktoreuh, 3 lip, 5 tongue, two in each nipple, sternum, 3 navel, christiana, and hood. I finally quit working at Dragon House about a week ago. I now work 50 hours a week at Mystic Piercing and Tribal Tattoo. My mom has the metro now, and I have a 99 cavalier. It's in pretty damn good condition, it's not the best type of car.. but it works for now. I'm still with Matt, it's been 8 months now. My longest continuous relationship, and his. Usually I get bored with people within a month or so, but I guess he keeps me busy. He's so different from everyone else.. he's not controlling, he doesn't mind who I hang out with because he trusts me.. stuff like that. He doesn't really show me much that he cares about me, but most of the time I know he does. He supports any decision I make, and he's going to be there for me throughout all of this medical bullshit and emotional bullshit. I have over a 90% chance of having Multiple Sclerosis. I have a bunch of doctors appointments this month to find out a lot of stuff. I haven't taken bipolar medications or anything, because I don't like being medicated. Although, I take ritalin because it helps me with my daily life and helps keep me awake and makes me eat less. I think the reason I have bipolar symptoms is not because I am bipolar, but because of Angie. Matt's "best friend," Angie. I fucking hate her and wish she would die. Matt and I didn't have any problems before he started hanging out with her again. Every time I see her, hear her name, they talk, or they hang out.. my mood completely changes and I get an overwhelming feeling of rage, hate, and depression. I've been putting effort out into getting over this, but I can't be the only one trying to do something about it. It's akward as fuck when we're all around each other. I said that all three of us should hang out so her and I have a chance to talk a bit and get to know one another. I don't want to be her friend and I'm not expecting that.. but I don't know much about her and I just thought it would help. She talked to him a couple days after he told her and said that if she's not part of the solution then she's part of the problem and she will just erase herself from his life. She pretty much said "fuck our 4-5 year friendship because I'm always going to hate Victoria and I don't want to even try to get to know her." Well, the shop was having a 3 day party about two hours away in Valley Lee, on the Patuxent River. I wasn't going to go, but changed my mind. I called Matt to tell him that I was on my way, and he failed to tell me that Angie showed up even though she wasn't supposed to come. I got there, and they're both in her car together all drunk. He said that she was drunk out of her mind and crying. She told him she didn't want his friendship anymore.. and he goes to comfort her. I'm never going to understand that. I don't know what the hell is going on with them now, but I'm supposed to stay the night at his house tonight and I guess we're having a talk. I feel horrible about their friendship and everything but I know for a fact him and I will be almost 100% problem free without her in his life. He told me that he needs me and he loves me with everything he has.. but she's a big part of his life too. I get to hang out with him once a fucking week outside of work. He hangs out with her just as much as me, if not more. She'll bitch at him and say "Why do you hang out with Victoria so much, why don't you hang out with me?" I'm his fucking girlfriend, and he said that he plans on spending the rest of his fucking life with me. That might explain it, although he doesn't hang out with me all the time like she fucking thinks. I don't hate people usually.. I dislike a lot of people, but it takes A LOT for me to hate somebody.. and I fucking hate her. She's in love with him, she tells people that.. and I don't like that at all. I can't stand the way she acts around him when I'm there.. it pisses me off to think how she acts when I'm not there. She causes so much stress in my life, and in mine and Matt's relationship. If this ends, it will be because of herr and nothing else.. I already know this. I hate the thought of us ending because of her.. and I don't know how to control or change it. I could type in here for days about her, but I'm going to stop now because I'm putting myself in a horrible mood.
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[08 Feb 2005|09:53pm] |
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Sooooo.. the past few days have been great, my medicine has been giving me positive effects. I don't really know what to type in here.. I just felt like posting something.. I got my hair dyed yesterday. Then today I decided that I wanted to grow it out. I'd love to shave my head and get a real hair wig, but I'd cry. Sooo.. I have to deal with shitty hair for a while. A long while. I think I'm starting to change.. I've been in super great moods lately and all that.. I've been wearing blood red nailpolish for a couple months and the other day I painted them black again. It looks weird, I don't like it anymore.. things like that, and I think my hair is too dark now.. I don't know.. i'm turning semi colorful.
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[04 Feb 2005|01:10am] |
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My body hates me. I got this huge polyp on my ear and we had to lance it [stick a needle in it to open it up] and put tons of peroxide on it. That wasn't too bad.. cleaning it again afterwards fucking BLEW. Matt's about to clean it for me now and I'm scared.. it stings like a mofo. My medicine isn't working too well.. it's making me worse actually so I'm going to a couple different psychiatrists to see what they say. I was "running" on the treadmill and I had it inclined and when I got off I felt all dizzy and it was hard to walk, I felt like I was going to fall backwards. I'm tired of typing.. bye bye.
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[22 Jan 2005|09:39pm] |
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Hi. It snowed a lot today, I'm glad I'm not snowed in though. I hate having to be inside for too long. I like freedom. Matt's cooking dinner.. well, breakfast for dinner. I can't stay out there because watching him cook annoys me. Everything he does is so complex.. everything I do is so simple. Watching people do things that could be done more simple just annoys me. I don't know why. It's cold. I'm thirsty.. I shall go get something to drink.
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[13 Jan 2005|10:47pm] |
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Yesterday I got a vertical medusa, which is being named Vicktoreuh. I'm just THAT special.
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[10 Jan 2005|01:55am] |
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OH, and I returned two boxes of those nicoderm cq patches because they were making me sick and I realized I didn't even need them to quit. So that was $100 refund :D
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[10 Jan 2005|01:49am] |
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Well, we're pretty much moved in. My dad bought us a really nice queen sized bed, and we're using the black silk sheets I bought. I have pretty much all of my clothes and shoes/boots here.. Matt has just about his entire room. His 1300 CDs are out in the living room because they don't fit in our room. The poker table came in a few days ago and it's nice as fuck. We've had a few games, I made Matt buy in for me tonight and then I lost all of his money, to him. Dickhead. Anyways.. I'm pretty tired, just bored and wanted to update. I quit smoking, be proud. There's massive amounts of alcohol in the house because Kiley likes to drink, but I haven't had any and I'm not going to because I don't drink anymore either. I didn't even drink on New Year's. Wow. :D I think I need to get a third job so I'll probably just work at the 7-11 about 1-2 miles away during the night because the one lady that works there loves me and I know I can at least have my nostril screw in. I should try and find an overnight stocking job or something of the sort because I hear they pay pretty decent money. I'll figure something out. I already have two jobs as it is.. I just don't get paid for one :D Dragon House I work Tuesday 4:30-9, Friday 4:30-10, Saturday 4:30-10, and Sunday 4:30-9 and I have to work at least 20 hours a week at Mystic... I barely get in my 20 hours at Mystic because shit usually comes up that's decently important during the days I could work more hours over there. I can't get a job during the day because it'd fuck up my apprenticeship hours so I don't really have any other choices. If I hadn't spent like $600-700 [not including bills] this past month I wouldn't have this problem. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
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[02 Jan 2005|12:02am] |
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I bought some of those Nicoderm CQ patches so I can quit smoking, it's a big present for everyone.. not a new years resolution, I don't make those :D I got three boxes, one of each step.. fucking $50 per box, and they're only a two week supply. In the tiny booklet thingie, it says the first step takes six weeks, and the other two steps only take two weeks. I'm not spending another $100 to get two more boxes of the first step. Fuck that.
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[01 Jan 2005|01:13am] |
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HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I got off work, drove to Matt's house with a massive migraine.. then we went to the party, I still felt like shit. I smoked some weed to ease the pain.. and my ears and throat started burning real bad after a few minutes and I felt dizzy and nautious whenever I stood up so I went into my car and laid down and slept for about an hour. Matt came out a few times to see me and give me kisses, see how I was doing, if I wanted to leave.. that kind of stuff. He came out at midnight to give me a kiss, it's his birthday now. He's 22 now.. I had to remind him of his age ;/ He got hammered. It takes him like three or four beers to get drunk.. but I'm pretty sure he had more than that. He was doing car bombs and drinking beer, playing beer pong.. all that good stuff. After Ryan and Karen came outside to give me a blanket, some hugs.. and check on me I realized I was feeling a lot better so I went inside. Everyone asked how I was feeling and all that good stuff... that was nice. I'm not used to people caring about how I feel.. at least not so many of them. I was inside talking to Bonnie about a lot of stuff, a lot of people have been telling me how happy they are that Matt and I are together. We make each other so happy, our lives have been so much better and less stressful.. we're both changing for the better, and we can't get enough of each other. He treats me so fucking great, he's honest and really really really loves me. He went up to Bonnie as her and I were talking, just so he could tell her that she was talking to "the greatest girl in the world" and pointed at me and said "THAT'S HER!" and went on with his drunken ramble. He's passed out on his bed right now, so cute ;x A lot of people kept taking pictures of us tonight. I'm gonna go lay down with him now. I hope everybody is doing great. :D
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[29 Dec 2004|01:26am] |
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Short update :D My dad is buying Matt and I a new bed for our house. We're going to start moving in on the first of January.. ummmmmmmmm.. I got $420 [so far] for Christmas, a $35 gift card to Hot Topic [probably won't use it], and a bunch of stuff for my house and blah blah blah. My head hurts and I'm kind of tired but I figured I'd let you all know I'm doing good and I'm still alive ;]
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[15 Dec 2004|07:57am] |
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I haven't updated in a little while. I got an industrial in my left ear and my right vertical nipple repierced yesterday. Now I have 30 piercings ;] and everything is symmetrical. It's way fucking early and I don't want to be awake, but I have to be. My head hurts and I'm tired.. I'd say m ore but I can't think.
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[07 Dec 2004|02:27am] |
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I got a BAD ASS tattoo today. It looks nice as FUCK, it was free but I gave him a $40 tip. I love it. My dad and his girlfriend said "This looks really nice.. the other tattoo you have looks like shit.. your arm looks like shit too" [talking about my scar]. That pissed me off, fuck them. Anyways.. life is great. I get to move in a month, that's good. There's so much stuff I want to type but I don't feel like it yet.
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[02 Dec 2004|11:21pm] |
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I DID MY FIRST PIERCING TODAYYYYYYYYYYYY and I got 100% on it. I figured out what I'm getting my tattoo of. I have this demon sword necklace and it's BADASS so i'm getting that tattooed on my arm under the scar from being cut. The owner told me that I look like a piercer and he knows I'll be a good piercer and all that good stuff. My septum is doing very well.. my venoms are too. I'm just fucking great.
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[02 Dec 2004|02:57am] |
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Sooooooooooooo Victoria got her septum and venoms pierced tonight. They look awesome. My Matters is great. Ummmmmmmmmm.. my birthday was pretty decent. My dad called me this morning and we met up for lunch, he gave me $500. I made $75 at work tonight.. I got free piercings.. I got to see boobies. I hung out with my awesome friend Meagan who recreated a very loved necklace of mine. I got sushi and a birthday cake, which I didn't eat any of. I got a box of 250 fortune cookies.. lots of slurpees and poker. The best of all.. I got Matt. We're going to sleep now, we have to get up early.
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[30 Nov 2004|11:25pm] |
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Soooooooooooo.. I get to the shop and my friend Megan is there with the most awesome fucking bracelet EVER that she made for me. We hung out there, Matt got his other armpit tattooed with a funnel spider in a web. It looks awesome but it's not done yet. Matt and I go back to his house and I'm walked into the dining room area.. I turn around and there's a birthday cake that says "Happy Birthday Victoria" and has a 1 and an 8 candle on it. I was all like .. yeah. I can't even describe it because my parents don't even give me birthday cakes anymore and I wasn't expecting that at all.. so then they start singing happy birthday to me. I'm all sorts of speechless and blushing n stuff. The cake was yummy. Then Matt's mom gives me my present, sweet pea shower gel and body lotion--MY FAVORITE. Then Matt gives me one of my presents, black roses. Jesus fuck I love black roses. Then I get another present after we come upstairs.. he got me all the seasons of Family Guy on dvd. I get my piercings tomorrow, my tattoo on Thursday, and my other present probably tomorrow. Matt's taking me into the back room club at his work and they have sex toys and all that. I've never used any kind of toys or whatever but he said he's getting me something.. I'm not very excited about that because it's new and weird to me but oh well. He's making me breakfast tomorrow morning and all that good stuff. He's fucking great. My mom got me some fuzzy big black pants for my birthday. They're like gangster pants but they're comfy as hell. Megan is taking my demon sword necklace that broke and she's recreating it with her own style, it's gonna look nice as fuck. She's also drawing my tattoo.. she's drawing a bunch of stuff and I'm going to pick something because I don't know what I want yet. I have awesome friends, an awesome loving boyfriend, and an awesome fucking life. I've never been happier, and I don't think that's going to change. Now I'm going to watch American History X. 25-30 MORE MINUTES TIL I'M 18.
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[30 Nov 2004|12:19am] |
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Matt's sheets came in today :] mmmm they feel nice. Just to get the full effect, I got naked and wrapped myself in them. It was nice. Megan called me today and she came to Mystic and hung out with me while I was visiting my Matters ;] We watched some movies on tv and then went to the sushi bar. There was a crazy black guy there, but I'm not going to type all that. Now I'm just sitting here and Matt is playing guitar. He got two pairs of glasses and they look so fucking cute on him. I just wanna eat him up ;] Naked boy playing guitar wooooooooooo. Okay, he has on boxers but you don't know that ;] His computer is being retarded so I'm going to stop with this entry,. ONE MORE DAYYYYYY.
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[25 Nov 2004|05:19pm] |
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Happy Turkey Day. I stayed at Matt's house last night because his parents cook breakfast on Holidays and they wanted me to eat breakfast with them, so we did that.. then saw Christmas with the Kranks at 2pm, it was decent, and then I came back and put my aromatherapy eye thingie on that is supposed to help with migraines. Bullshit, all it did was put pressure on my face, make my skin tingly, and fuck up my mascara. My migraines are getting worse and worse every fucking day. Last night Matt just held me while I was crying because I hurt so bad. I dealt with it pretty good actually, I only cried for a brief period of time. Some of his friends are having a little "get together" later on so we're going to stop by there. I'm sleepy :[ Matt's birthday present gets shipped out tomorrow! I'm going to fucking love these silk sheets.. mmmmm yummy. I need to get my eyebrows waxed ;\ Blah. I'm going to lay down with him now.
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[24 Nov 2004|01:00pm] |
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Lalala. I'm bored, I actually stayed at my house last night. Yesterday I got to see Matt's Great Aunt and Uncle from New Jersey. They were really cool.. his uncle is crazy but somewhat entertaining. :D I think I'll get along with his extended family real well, just as his immediate family. I'm staying at his house tonight because tomorrow his mom is cooking a big breakfast for everyone, and then we're going to see Christmas with the Kranks, and then we're having baked zini for our thanksgiving dinner. I lost my train of thought so I'll stop typing now.. SEVEN DAYS.
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[15 Nov 2004|07:56am] |
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It's fucking 8am, and I'm awake. What is this shit? I don't want to be awake, I want to be sleeping. I couldn't really sleep last night because I was hot and cold at the same time and Matt was in a weird position so I couldn't get comfortable. He told me he was going to sleep on the floor so I could have the whole bed ;x and he did. We went to see Throwdown, Children of Bodom, Fear Factory, and Lamb of God last night. I almost beat the shit out of these two girls that were in the line behind us. They were probably about 14 and wouldn't shut the fuck up about how long the line is. One of them was like "OHHH MY GOODDDDDDDDDDD THAT GUY HAS HIS CHEEKS PIERCED! I WANT MINE DONE!" Too bad they have to wait four more years. There were fucking like punk and emo kids there. Half of the people who attended that concert should have died. I saw A LOT of people there that I knew, I wasn't expecting that one. Matt felt bad that I couldn't mosh or anything because of my piercings, especially my new ones.. so he didn't either. A while ago, when I first really started talking to Matt and hanging out with him
I told him that I knew someone that lived around him, but I forgot his name [I hung out with him when I was "engaged" to Gabriel]. Last night, when we went to pick up his friend John for the concert.. I was like "hey, that's the guys house that I know." Matt's like "You know every body." :D John was like "Weren't you supposed to be moving to New Jersey?" I said "We're not getting into that.. okay, yes we are." So I told him that Gabriel met this girl online and he said he liked her so we broke up because I couldn't trust him anymore because he's cheated on me before [still not sure why I went back to him, I'm an idiot I guess] and now he's with her and they're getting married and all that good stuff. Soooooooooo yeah. Awww Matt's in some like beaver pajamas and he looks like a nerd ;x it's cute though. I had to sleep with my contacts in because I left my contact case at my house ;\ that sucked. Well then, I'm gonna go back to bed because Matt just got back [he had to take his dad to goodyear.]
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